i'm still smiling...

there are so many millions of things that are stressing me out, frustrating me, making me angry, worrying me, etc. for example:

• i am moving to WI in 2 weeks... 2 weeks!... and i still don't have an apartment.
• because i still don't have an apartment i can't finalize the movers.
• i haven't even started packing.
• i still have a million things to do at work and my last day is july 13.
• i have to start work 2 days after i get to WI... what?!
• i have to start my life over... again.
• i have to make all new friends... again.
• i have to learn a new job and meet all new students... again.
• canceling/setting up utilities and changing addresses on EVERYTHING is no fun.
• have i mentioned that i haven't started packing???

but even after all of that... i am still smiling.

wanna know why?

i think i just unintentionally may have sort of accidentally kinda randomly unexpectedly maybe fell in love.

and i should be completely distraught about the thought of leaving him and moving halfway across the country. but i'm not.

i feel so lucky that he has been a part of my life, and that i have gotten to be a part of his, that i am just oh so grateful for him i'm smiling.

and it hasn't been like any other "relationship" i've ever had. i know i haven't regaled you all with a play-by-play of how things have been going (besides the occasional update) like i have in the past, but it's just been so different. it's hard to explain. it's hard to put in words. it's a little overwhelming and a whole lotta scary, but it is just so good.

and who knows... maybe if things are meant to be they will work out in the end.

if not... i am just so damn glad that the driver decided to let me be a part of his world these last few weeks. my heart has grown because of it...

:o)