silent sense of content...

it's okay in the day i'm staying busy
tied up enough so i don't have to wonder where is he
got so sick of crying
so just lately
when i catch myself i do a 180
i stay up clean the house
at least i'm not drinking
run around just so i don't have to think about thinking
that silent sense of content
that everyone gets
just disappears soon as the sun sets

this face in my dreams seizes my guts
he floods me with dread
soaked in soul
he swims in my eyes by the bed
pour myself over him
moon spilling in
and i wake up alone

if i was my heart
i'd rather be restless
the second i stop the sleep catches up and i'm breathless
this ache in my chest
as my day is done now
the dark covers me and i cannot run now
my blood running cold
i stand before him
it's all i can do to assure him
when he comes to me
i drip for him tonight
drowning in me we bathe under blue light

his face in my dreams seizes my guts
he floods me with dread
soaked in soul
he swims in my eyes by the bed
pour myself over him
moon spilling in
and i wake up alone
and i wake up alone
and i wake up alone
and i wake up alone

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never where i thought i'd end up...

scratch that.... never where i want to end up. so i won't let myself.

not anymore.


all i can ever be to you,
is a darkness that we knew,
and this regret i've got accustomed to,
once it was so right,
when we were at our high,
waiting for you in the hotel at night.
i knew i hadn't met my match,
but every moment we could snatch,
i don't know why i got so attached.
it's my responsibility,
and you don't owe nothing to me,
but to walk away i have no capacity.

he walks away,
the sun goes down,
he takes the day but i'm grown,
and in your way, in this blue shade
my tears dry on their own.

i don't understand,
why do i stress a man,
when there's so many bigger things at hand.
we could a never had it all,
we had to hit a wall,
so this is inevitable withdrawal.
even if i stop wanting you,
a perspective pushes true,
i'll be some next man's other woman soon.

i shouldn't play myself again,
i should just be my own best friend,
not fuck myself in the head with stupid men.

he walks away,
the sun goes down,
he takes the day but i'm grown,
and in your way, in this blue shade
my tears dry on their own.

so we are history,
your shadow covers me
the sky above,
a blaze only that lovers see

he walks away,
the sun goes down,
he takes the day but i'm grown,
and in your way, in this blue shade
my tears dry on their own.

i wish i could say no regrets,
and no emotional debts,
cause that kiss goodbye the sun sets.
so we are history,
your shadow covers me,
the sky above a blaze that only lovers see,

he walks away,
the sun goes down,
he takes the day but i'm grown,
and in your way,
my deep shade,
my tears dry…

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