a snowy season's greeting...
Wednesday, December 23, 2009
wishing you and yours the best this holiday season... Picasso Pictures Christmas Card 2009 from Amael Isnard on Vimeo.
peace and love to you,
calixta.jive.
wishing you and yours the best this holiday season... Picasso Pictures Christmas Card 2009 from Amael Isnard on Vimeo.
peace and love to you,
calixta.jive.
have you ever gone through each day wondering if a decision you made may have been the biggest mistake you've ever made?
i have.
i do.
yuletide greetings, happy winter solstice, merry darkest night... whatever you prefer to call it. may your day, and (longest) night, be filled with joy and love.
xoxo.
to be honest with ya'll, i'm not even sure where to start.
i guess i'll take the easy (easiest?) route and try starting at the beginning... when i last left you i was headed to my last day of work in SoCal before my big move back to WI.
let me summarize the experience by saying this... it was me and my 2 cats in the car for a little less than 3 days... wow. actually, it was kind of fun. and my cats like hotels. who knew?
i arrived in WI in the middle of july or so... and when did the moving company get all of my things to WI? THE. END. OF. AUGUST. no joke.
i packed my car with enough stuff for me and my cats to survive 2 weeks. i'm talking the basics here folks, some clothes, my travel toiletries, all my cat stuff, my sleeping bag and pillow, my laptop, my camera, and some valuables i didn't want to pack. so let's just say that sleeping on the floor in a sleeping bag for 5 weeks is NOT my idea of a good time. hell, i realized i am far too old for that... i was so sore! and yes, it crossed my mind to buy/borrow an air mattress but i have 2 cats with all their claws. enough said.
the kicker is that the end of august and september is one of the busiest times at work for me... especially starting a new job. so how fast do you think i got my stuff unpacked? oh yeah, there are still a few boxes that i haven't even emptied yet. i'm hoping to tackle that over the holiday break. *fingers crossed*
so that is just a little bit of why i haven't been blogging in awhile... understandable, i think so. the rest of the saga, to be continued...
the stars lean down to kiss you
and i lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere
'cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
i'd send a postcard to you, dear
'cause i wish you were here
i'll watch the night turn light-blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly
the silence isn't so bad
'til i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly
i'll find repose in new ways
though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia
chills me to the bone
but drenched in vanilla twilight
i'll sit on the front porch all night
waist-deep in thought because
when i think of you i don't feel so alone
i don't feel so alone, i don't feel so alone
as many times as i blink
i'll think of you tonight
i'll think of you tonight
when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
i'll taste the sky and feel alive again
and i'll forget the world that i knew
but i swear i won't forget you
oh, if my voice could reach
back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling, i wish you were here
i know i've been gone a looooong ass time. and i'll get to that at some point. but for now, i need to know...
are there such things as "signs" out there?
now, i'm not talking about red octagons and yellow triangle type signs. i'm talking about having a dream about smoke and then your house burns down the next day. or your not sure where to eat for lunch and then you get a restaurant coupon in your email. alright, maybe those weren't very good examples, but you get my point.
see here's the deal... i try really hard to not think about my ex, "the one", but he just happened to come up in casual conversation today. no big deal. right? i haven't talked about him in months and i haven't seen him in years, but whatever. then just a few short hours later i check my e-mail and guess who has friended me on FB? yup, "the one".
so is that a sign? a freaky coincidence? or just something to get my overworked brain all messed up about?
if only my mind had an off switch...
yes. it's true.
i'm back.
:o)
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