self-destruction...

i took another large step down my inevitable path of self-destruction.

it's what i do.

it's who i am.

i break what isn't broken. i ruin what is good. i shatter everything that is fragile. i search for the impossible. i yearn for the unattainable. i seek out unhappiness, despair and turmoil. i strive for inner conflict. i am my own worst critic. i inflict inner emotion damage until i hurt so bad i can't think straight. i destroy every single tiny piece of self-worth that i have inside of me.

maybe its better if the only person that can hurt me - is myself.