drenched in vanilla twilight...

the stars lean down to kiss you
and i lie awake and miss you
pour me a heavy dose of atmosphere

'cause i'll doze off safe and soundly
but i'll miss your arms around me
i'd send a postcard to you, dear
'cause i wish you were here

i'll watch the night turn light-blue
but it's not the same without you
because it takes two to whisper quietly

the silence isn't so bad
'til i look at my hands and feel sad
'cause the spaces between my fingers
are right where yours fit perfectly

i'll find repose in new ways
though i haven't slept in two days
'cause cold nostalgia
chills me to the bone

but drenched in vanilla twilight
i'll sit on the front porch all night
waist-deep in thought because
when i think of you i don't feel so alone

i don't feel so alone, i don't feel so alone

as many times as i blink
i'll think of you tonight
i'll think of you tonight

when violet eyes get brighter
and heavy wings grow lighter
i'll taste the sky and feel alive again

and i'll forget the world that i knew
but i swear i won't forget you
oh, if my voice could reach
back through the past
i'd whisper in your ear
oh darling, i wish you were here

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spit that game, v.4...

once again, it is that time...

if you missed the introduction to "SPIT THAT GAME", let me fill you in...

because i love hip-hop and because i'm "down" (i mean really, who doesn't need a tip drill?) (not too mention i have the ass to prove it, lol, that is a topic for another post...), i feel that it is my duty to share with you a random sampling of a few of my all time favorite lines. now some of these lines have specific memories associated with them, some are just so true it is pure genius, and some just crack my shit up!!!

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because it's been far too long since our last installment, i bring you... VOLUME 4!!!

"protection, for gangs, clubs and nations. causing grief in human relations. it's a turf war, on a global scale. i'd rather hear both sides of the tale. see, its not about races, just places, faces. where your blood comes from is where your space is. i've seen the bright get duller, i'm not going to spend my life being a color." - l.t.b. (in michael jackson's black or white) (now those are some rap lines that still ring true...)

"check it out! once upon a time in '94, montell made no money and life sure was slow.
all they said was 6'8" he stood, and people thought the music that he made was good..." - montell jordan (seriously awesome... because this is how we do it!)

'so what up, what's haapnin'?
all you haters, can get at me
'cause i hear you, and am watchin' but am serious
haters, so all i got to say is WHAT UP!?...
"what it is bruh? what it do man?"' - t.i. (i'm not gonna lie to ya... i greet all my friends with "what it is bruh? what it do man?" now... lol, it's funny 'cause it's true...)

"hell yeah ma, i love a girl that's willin' to learn. willin' to get in the driver's seat and willin' to turn. and not concerned about that he say, she say, did he say what i think he said? squash that, he probably got that off ebay or some, internet access, some website chat line. mad cause i got mine, oh don't wind up on the flat line..." - nelly (who doesn't love rapping this line? 'cause this girl does!!! i even have hand motions for it... heehee.)

"watch out for the medallion my diamonds are wreckless.
feels like a MIDGET is hanging from my necklace." - ludacris (classic. CLASSIC!)

i'm itching to go dancing now... bring on JULY!!!

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if today was not an endless highway...

if tonight was not a crooked trail
if tomorrow wasn't such a long time
then lonesome would mean nothing to me at all

yes, and only if my own true love was waiting
if i could hear his heart softly pounding
yes, and only if he was lying by me
would i lie in my bed once again

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so as i have mentioned earlier, i have been trying out the whole online dating thing. besides the fact that any and all men in my life live in another state, which makes the whole commitment thing a bit difficult, i seem to be running short in the friend department these days. so... i put myself out there. i figured that even if i don't find my soul mate (even if i end up with mr. west) i could meet some new friends.

this has been my experience so far:

• lots of creepy messages from even creepier fellas (including married men)
• lots of really weaksauce attempts at witty/intelligent e-mails
  
• a fair share of x-rated messages from fellas i've never communicated with previously
• lots of lamesauce messages from fellas who clearly didn't ever even glance at my profile, just looked at my photos
  
• and a handful of interesting fellas

among those interesting fellas, here is a rundown of the most interesting:

• the soccer player - who i decided to have dinner with and then realized after meeting him in person that he is gay. and i'm not trying to be rude here people, this fella is gay... he just hasn't admitted it to himself yet.
• the dude - who i had a few beers with but then realized that all he does is drink beer and talk about philosophy and theory.
• the professor - he teaches religious studies and when we met for lunch he didn't wait for me to get there to be seated (i had to search the restaurant for him) and even though he asked me to lunch, i paid. yes, you read that right. check came, he just sat there. i pulled out my wallet (thinking to myself that he would, too and we would at least go dutch) and he continued to just sit there. seriously. that's class.
• texas - who lives approximately 1300 miles away but we just so happen to get along great (of course he lives in another state, why wouldn't he? lol) but he scares me a bit when he talks about visiting.

and the best:

• the driver - he's interesting, never fails to make me laugh, we have a lot in common (but not too much), his smile could make ANYONE smile, he's intelligent, random, my age (strange, right?) completely gorgeous... i mean devastatingly handsome people (makes me wonder why he's single???), and we connected by quoting on of my fave movies... heehee.
  

we finally met in person last night and it was wonderful. it may have been one of the best dates i've ever been on. no, wait. it was one of the best dates (not that i've been on many "dates", i tend to have the "let's hang out" kind of scenario more often... anyone have that issue?), hands down. i was nervous, i changed 4 times, i actually did something with my hair, and did i mention i was nervous? but it was so good... we had dinner, talked, laughed, talked, saw a movie.

and then after he dropped me off and walked me to the door he kissed me. and ladies... i felt the tingle. the spark. i felt all wiggly inside and i'm not going to lie... if he had kissed me any more my thighs would have started to itch... it was glorious.

and he text me before he had even made it home to thank me for the evening, let me know how much fun he had, and how he couldn't wait to see me again.

and i spent my 15 hour work day today with a shit-eating grin on my face... all day. :o)

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spit that game, v.3...

once again, it is that time...

if you missed the introduction to "SPIT THAT GAME", let me fill you in...

because i love hip-hop and because i'm "down" (i mean really, who doesn't need a tip drill?) (not too mention i have the ass to prove it, lol, that is a topic for another post...), i feel that it is my duty to share with you a random sampling of a few of my all time favorite lines. now some of these lines have specific memories associated with them, some are just so true it is pure genius, and some just crack my shit up!!!

the story for this volume - more proof that "i'm down" :

i just got my great new bag from be smart, be green thanks to ...love Maegan and here it is! lol. (thanks so much Maegan!)
i currently have 114 songs by and/or featuring ludacris on my iTunes.

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to help me get through the last of this friday work day, i bring you... VOLUME 3!!!

"i know your heart is weathered by what studs did to you, i ain't gon' assault em, 'cause i probably did it too.
because of you, feelings i handle with care, some niggaz recognize the light, but they can't handle the glare.
you know i ain't the type to walk around with matchin' shirts, if relationship is effort, i will match your work." - common (oh common, you are so enlightened...)

"i don't got the bright watch, i got the right watch.
i don't buy out the bar, i bought the night spot." - jay z (jay z really is the man.)

"so you up and comin' rappers wanna dis, just kill it.
i'm officially the realest. point, blank, period." - t.i. (that shit is for real... point, blank, period.)

"hell yeah ma, i love a girl that's willin' to learn. willin' to get in the driver's seat and willin' to turn. and not concerned about that he say, she say, did he say what I think he said? squash that, he probably got that off ebay or some, internet access some, website chat line. mad cause i got mine, oh don't wind up on the flat line..." - nelly (you know what? I. AM. #1!)

"girl you get me aroused how you look in my eye,
but you talk to much, man your ruinin' my high." - fat joe (i hate it when bitches ruin my high... ahahaaha!)

"they shootin'!... aw made you look,
you a slave to a page in my rhyme book." - nas (admit it, ya'll looked, didn't ya?)

"i love you like a fat kid loves cake." - 50 cent (this is classic. seriously.)

"fuck you! fuck you! i'm screwed up.
i feel better than i've ever felt before, ah!
intoxicated but maintaining self-control, ah!" - ludacris (always a perfect opening to a great night... and words i like to live by.)

'you just popped in the "Kanye West Get Right for the Summer" workout tape and ladies if you follow these instructions exactly you might bear to pull you a rapper, a NBA player, man, at least a dude wit' a car...
so first of all we gon' work on the stomach, nobody wants a little tight ass! 1 and 2 and 3 and 4 and get them sit ups right and tuck your tummy tight and do your crunches like this. give head, stop breathe, get up, check your weave.' - kanye west (hey wat's up girrrrrrl?! ...i'm the bootleg queeeeeen, i'll give it to you for $FREE.99! aahhahahhaha! thank you kanye!... love it!!!)

hope you enjoyed!!!

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i'm am steady and unstable...

because this is exactly how i DON'T fee at the moment, but wish i did...


if i live to be a hundred
and never see the seven wonders
that'll be alright
if ii don't make it to the big leagues
if i never win a Grammy
i'm gonna be just fine
'cause i know exactly who i am

i am rosemary's granddaughter
the spitting image of my father
and when the day is done
my momma's still my biggest fan
sometimes i'm clueless and i'm clumsy
but i've got friends who love me
and they know just where i stand
it's all a part of me
and that's who i am

so when i make big mistake
when i fall flat on my face
i know i'll be alright
Should my tender heart be broken
i will cry those teardrops knowin'
i will be just fine
'cause nothin' changes who i am

i am rosemary's granddaughter
the spitting image of my father
and when the day is done
my momma's still my biggest fan
sometimes i'm clueless and i'm clumsy
but i've got friends who love me
and they know just where i stand
it's all a part of me
and that's who i am

i'm a saint and i'm a sinner
i'm a loser, i'm a winner
i'm am steady and unstable
i am young but i'm able

it's all a part of me
and that's who i am...

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spit that game, v.2...

to help entertain you (and because i missed you all!) it's been too long...

if you missed the introduction to "SPIT THAT GAME", let me fill you in...

because i love hip-hop and because i'm "down" (i mean really, who doesn't need a tip drill?) (not too mention i have the ass to prove it, lol, that is a topic for another post...), i feel that it is my duty to share with you a random sampling of a few of my all time favorite lines. now some of these lines have specific memories associated with them, some are just so true it is pure genius, and some just crack my shit up!!!

the story for this volume - more proof that "i'm down" :

once again it was undergrad. i had recently accepted a bid and joined an amazing sorority. i was new to the Greek world and i didn't know all of my sister that well yet. one weekend we spent saturday evening hanging out, acting goofy, and getting ready for a party thrown by one of our favorite fraternities. once we got to the party we made our way to the dance floor in the basement and we were having a blast and dancing up a storm (have i mentioned i love dancing?). anywhoo, the Luda song "fatty girl" came on and i proceeded to not only shake what my momma gave me, but rap. every. single. line.

needless to say, my sisters were a bit surprised. i got a lot of comments like... "we thought you were kinda NERDY?" "how do YOU know the words to that song?" "you seem like such a GOOD GIRL?" "did that just happen?" "but, but, aren't you really SMART?".... HAHAHAHA! oh, what they had yet to discover... heehee.

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and now i bring you... VOLUME 2!!!

"QUIET!!! shh, hush yo mouth. silence when i, spit it out. in yo face. open yo mouth, give you a taste. (Holla) ain't no stoppin me, copywritten so, don't copy me. y'all do it, sloppily. and y'all cant come, close to me." - missy elliot (i remember rapping these lines will working orientation during undergrad... good memories.)

"are you custom-made, custom-paid, or you just custom-fitted?" - ludacris (this is a question i ask frequently, lol!)

"i'm the MBP, Most Ballenous Player.
make my own rules, bitch call me the mayor." - jermaine dupri (you can call me the mayor anytime...)

'one said "ain't you that boy that be on BET?"
"ya that's me, ching-a-ling equipped wit much ding-a-ling"' - chingy (seriously chingy, ding-a-ling? lol.)

'i'm Kan the Louis Vuitton Don. bought my mom a purse now she Louis Vuitton Mom. still might throw on a little low arm they want me to stop, go on go on. they don't want me to shop and me spending that hard. "oh my gawd, is that a black card?" i turned around and replied "why yes, but i prefer the term African-American Express"' - kanye west (i love rapping these lines...)

"i know this world is so cold & deceiving,
but i keep my head up like my nose is bleeding" - lil wayne (that's deep...)

"oh yeah, i represent the Dirty Southside.
i'm a dentist makin' women open they mouth wide" - ludacris (Luda is just so damn clever!)

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spit that game, v.1...

i am starting a new tradition here at ...call me captain backfire entitled-

"SPIT THAT GAME"

excited?!?! of course you are... so am i!

here is the deal - yes i am an extremely white girl from the northern midwest, but no that does not stop me from being the most "down" white girl you know.

alright, i may be exaggerating just a bit, but hey... the most "down" white girl that i know, hated (who can c-walk better than ANYONE, just for the record), once told me i was "down" and it is probably one of the best compliments that i have ever received. this is how the conversation went:

(sometime in the year 2000, hated and i were sitting in an art history class in undergrad...)

hated: "andele andele mami, E.I. E.I. uh-ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh! what's poppin' tonight?"
(she randomly busts out a rap quite frequently, this is not unusual for her...)
ME: "andele andele mami, E.I. E.I. uh-ohhhhhhhhhhhhhh! if the head right, Nelly there ery'night"
hated: (turns and stares at me dumbfounded) "i never knew..."
ME: "you never knew what?"
hated: "you're down."
ME: (un-phased) "most people don't."

anyway, back to my point... because i love hip-hop and because i'm "down" (i mean really, who doesn't need a tip drill?) (not too mention i have the ass to prove it, lol, that is a topic for another post...), i feel that it is my duty to share with you a random sampling of a few of my all time favorite lines. now some of these lines have specific memories associated with them, some are just so true it is pure genius, and some just crack my shit up!!!

from time to time i will post the next edition of "SPIT THAT GAME," but for my inaugural post let me share with you these lyrical gems...


"love a combination big ass and tight jeans" - ludacris (this defines me... lol! oh and be warned... there will be a lot of my man, luda, he's a lyrical genius)

"check it, i grew up a fuckin' screw up.
got introduced to the game,
got a ounce and fuckin' blew up" - notorious B.I.G. (classic biggie...)

"put up your peace sign, put your index down." - gym class heroes (i loved seeing the entire crowd throw it up at the gch concert...)

"took your momma 9 months to make ya...
might as well shake what your momma gave ya." - ludacris (rules to live by, and hey, i warned you!...)

"spoil me mama, back rub oil me mama...
when i'm left over, aluminum foil me mama." - murphy lee (one of the most hilarious rap lyrics EVER, not too mention murphy lee is outstanding in concert...)

"wee ooh wee ooh wee (wee),
wee ooh wee ooh wee (wee),
wee ooh wee ooh wee,
(like a cop car)" - lil' wayne (he makes the chorus sound just like the siren of a cop car... hahaahahahaaahaahaaaha!...)


now tell me that didn't put a smile on your face? oh, and feel free to share some of your faves to hold you over until the next edition of...

"SPIT THAT GAME!!!"

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now it's one more night at the upside down...

well... that's that.
i really do wish #23 all the best and i hope that he has all the happiness in the world. i hope he knows that.

there's a dark cloud hanging over my heart
i can't see where it ends, or where it starts.
i should get over you, but baby, it's so hard,
with this dark cloud hanging over my heart.

there's a sad song ringing in my head.
baby, it's been here ever since you left.
i should be moving along how far would i get
with this sad song ringing in my head.

i just really miss you, i just really miss you,
there's a life i can't ask you to leave.
i just really miss you, right now i kinda want to.
the closest that you'll ever be to me
is free.

there's a hard wind blowing through this town.
and nothing left to hold is pushing me down.
it blows over you and me without a sound.
there's a hard wind blowing through this town.

i just really miss you, i just really miss you,
there's a life i can't ask you to leave.
i just really miss you, right now i kinda need to.
the closest that you'll ever be to me
is free.

now it's one more night at the upside down,
it's ten steps in, and hundred miles back out.

i just really miss you, i just really miss you,
there's a life i can't ask you to leave.
i just really miss you, right now i kinda need to.
the closest that you'll ever be to me
is free.

there's a dark cloud hanging over my heart.....

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a girl like me...

you don't need a girl like me
i've got bruises you can't see
and when the lights go out
i won't be around
you don't need a girl like me

you can't have a heart like mine
but you can hold it for a while
and when the lights go out
i won't be around
you can't have a heart like mine

there's a rule that goes unwritten
and i break it from time to time
if you're fool enough to listen
then i'm fool enough to lie

that's the kind of girl i am
i take off before i land
and even though you think you can
you can't change the way i am

cause the rule remains unwritten
i still break it from time to time
if you're fool enough to listen
then i'm fool enough to lie

you can't change the way i am
you don't need a girl like me

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i hope someone is looking for me...

maybe you're just jaded from some nobody's unforgotten words maybe you're just faded, a little gray from every time that you've been hurt
so you're lookin' for your skin that you never did fit in
you can't hide when you're turned inside out
love is looking for you now

maybe you been burnin' but you can't blow out a flame that you can't find
maybe you've been thirsty but the rain just ain't enough when you're this dry
so you're runnin' from the water and the fire's getting hotter
i think you better find some level ground
love is lookin' for you now
love is lookin' for you now

maybe you been wearing the shoes that someone else is wearing now
maybe you've been swearing forever might have already run out you can't love yourself at the expense of someone else
you can't hide a liar from the truth
love is lookin' for you
love is lookin' for you

i've been looking for you
baby i've been lookin.....
i've been looking for you

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it's lucky i'm clever...

because i can't seem to put all of my thoughts and feelings into words right now, and because i am doing surprisingly well at keeping my spirits high (with lots of help, thank you), i am not going to dwell on the fact that #23 and i are no longer. i'll let this say it for me...

for now...

as high as the moon
so high were my spirits
when you sang out my name

and coming from you
it was enough just to hear it
oh, it rang like the bells did today

but even the sturdiest ground
can shift and can tremble and let us fall down

kindly unspoken
you show your emotion
and silence speaks louder than words
it's lucky i'm clever
if i didn't know better
i'd believe only that which i'd heard

in the days of my folly
i followed your lead
did what simon said to do

but i won't let melancholy
play me for a fool
oh, no i'm on my way somewhere new

and as far as your lack of something to say
well, to tell me goodbye there was no better way

kindly unspoken
you show your emotion
and silence speaks louder than words
it's lucky i'm clever
if i didn't know better
i'd believe only that which i'd heard

so don't keep me up till the dawn
with words that'll keep leading me on
i know much better than to wait for an answer from you

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i feel like a monster...

this is what my rollercoaster of emotions have left me feeling like lately...

what's wrong with me?
why do i feel like this?
i'm going crazy now

no more gas in the rig
can't even get it started
nothing heard, nothing said
can't even speak about it
all my life on my head
don't want to think about it
feels like i'm going insane
yeah

it's a thief in the night
to come and grab you
it can creep up inside you
and consume you
a disease of the mind
it can control you
it's too close for comfort

throw on your brake lights
we're in the city of wonder
ain't gonna play nice
watch out, you might just go under
better think twice
your train of thought will be altered
so if you must faulter be wise
your mind is in disturbia
it's like the darkness is the light
disturbia
am i scaring you tonight
disturbia
ain't used to what you like
disturbia
disturbia

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just keep your head above...

i need to remember to swim...

you gotta swim
swim for your life
swim for the music that saves you
when you're not so sure you'll survive
you gotta swim
swim when it hurts
the whole world is watching
you haven't come this far
to fall off the earth
the currents will pull you
away from your love
just keep your head above

i found a tidal wave
begging to tear down the dawn
memories like bullets
they fired at me from a gun
cracking me open yeah
i swim to brighter days
despite the absence of sun
choking on salt water
i'm not giving in
i swim

you gotta swim
swim in the dark
there's an ocean to drift in
feel the tide shifting away from the spark
yeah you gotta swim
don't let yourself sink
just follow the horizon
i promise you it's not as far as you think
the currents will drag us away from our love
just keep your head above
just keep your head above
swim
just keep your head above
swim, swim
just keep your head above
swim

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one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door ...

here's to all those things that i just can't seem to say, and all those questions that i am too scared to ask...

once upon a time, i believe it was a tuesday when i caught your eye
and we caught onto something
i hold onto the night, you looked me in the eye and told me you loved me

were you just kidding?
'cause it seems to me, this thing is breaking down
we almost never speak
i don't feel welcome anymore
baby what happened, please tell me?

'cause one second it was perfect, now you're halfway out the door

and i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always
oh, and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
cause i was there when you said forever and always

was i out of line?
did i say something way too honest, made you run and hide
like a scared little boy
i looked into your eyes
thought i knew you for a minute, now i'm not so sure

so here's everything coming down to nothing
here's to silence that cuts me to the core
where is this going?
thought i knew for a minute, but i don't anymore

and i stare at the phone, he still hasn't called
and then you feel so low you cant feel nothing at all
and you flashback to when he said forever and always
oh, and it rains in your bedroom
everything is wrong
it rains when you're here and it rains when you're gone
'cause i was there when you said forever and always
you didn't mean it baby, i don't think so

back up, baby, back up
did you forget everything???

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there you go when i'm not done...

are you really going to give up already???

this is the only lonely picture
waiting on my floor, littering my shore
this is the last true burning letter
given to a girl, written by a boy
living in a world created to destroy

but if i built you a city
would you let me?
would you tear it down?

but there you go for the last time
i finally know now what i should have known then
and i could still be ruthless if you let me
but there you go when i'm not done
you're waving goodbye well at least you're having fun
the rising tide will not let you forget me...
forget me

this is your ghost that kneels before me
razors on her tongue, a body full of oxygen
it won't be the last time you'll ignore me
thinning of my skin, without the strength to go
winter's setting in, to cover you in snow

but if i built you a city,
would you let me?
would you tear it down?

but there you go for the last time
i finally know what i should have known then
and i could still be ruthless if you let me
but there you go when i'm not done
you're waving goodbye
well at least you're having fun
the rising tide will not let you forget me
forget me
forget me
forget me, yeah

and i'll raise towers and climb them
rivers and walk them
oceans to drown in
you won't make a sound in...

but there you go for the last time
i finally know what i should have known then
and i could still be ruthless if you let me
but there you go when i'm not done
you're waving goodbye well at least you're having fun
the rising tide will not let you forget me
forget me...

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there's danger in frustration...

this is so true that it hurts. physically hurts.

throw a dog a bone,
i'll take it if i have to
go real fast like there's somewhere we can get to
what's the use of standing right there on the edge
if there ain't nowhere to fall
what's the use in hanging on tight to the phone
if nobody might call

desperation
there's danger in frustration
complicated words slipping off of your tongue
and ain't one of them the truth
i'm still desperate for you

tell it like a lie,
live it like a movie
give a heart away like it don't mean nothing to me
what's the use in making all the plans that we made
if you weren't gonna go
what's the use of slapping on a smile for a face
if your eyes don't wanna show

desperation
there's danger in frustration
complicated words slipping off of your tongue
and ain't one of them the truth
i'm still desperate for you

well it's too damn bad you didn't have a chance to make me your best friend
you were too caught up in giving too much up and not doing what you should have been

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learning how to bend...

i'm still learning how to trust.
it's so hard to open up,
and i'd do anything for us.
i'm still learning how to trust...

i'm still learning how to bend,
how to let you in.
in a world full of tears,
we'll conquer all our fears.
i'm still learning how to fly,
i wanna take you higher.
i'll be there till the end.
i'll be your lover and your friend.
i'm still learning how to bend...

i'm just trying to understand,
it's all in someone else's hands.
there's always been a bigger plan,
but i don't need to understand.

i'm still learning how to bend...

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feel that fire...

she wants her nails painted black
she wants the toy in the crackerjack
she wants to ride the bull at the rodeo

she wants to wear my shirt to bed
she wants to make every stray a pet
n' drive around in my truck with no place to go

but she needs to feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
a real desire, does she know i'd walk alone out on the wire
to make her feel that fire

she wants a cabin in the woods
she wants to stand where nobody stood
and someday she wants a couple kids of her own

she wants to make love on a train
and some days she only wants a break
hey but she wants what she wants, but man i know, i know, i know

she needs to feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
a real desire, does she know i'd walk alone out on the wire
to make her feel that fire
yeah, feel that fire

so as long as there's a breath to take
a smile to share, a prayer to pray
a chance to hold her hand to fan the flame

she's gonna feel that fire
the one that lets her know for sure
she's everything i want and more
her real desire, does she know i'd walk alone out on the wire
yeah, to make her feel that fire
oh feel that fire
she wants her nails painted black

she wants the toy in the crackerjack
she wants to ride the bull at the rodeo

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hurry, hurry, you put my head in such a flurry, flurry...

"my head's in heaven, my soles are in hell...
let's meet in the purgatory of my hips and get well."

how perfect is that?

i just can't stop thinking about what is waiting for me at this end of this flight... but alas my travel saga continues: i am currently sitting in the airport in phoenix (at least i made it this far!) waiting on my delayed flight...

who thinks i'll make it back to the midwest anytime soon?

i sure as hell better... #23 is waiting for me!

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you in a song...

trying to figure out which way i want this to go.
do i want it to be happy or sad or fast or slow?
trying to work it out what it is i feel.
do i wanna rock you, shock you, soothe you, or move you??

i just wanna write you in a song.
put your smile on paper so you can sing along.
i just wanna bottle the sun.
yeah, keep your light a secret i can find when you are gone, gone, gone...

you are like a beautiful tree,
with roots in the ground so deep that they could never be seen.
i'm a leaf that ready to fall,
and the wind's gonna blow me someday away from it all...

i just wanna write you in a song.
put your smile on paper so you can sing along.
i just wanna bottle the sun.
yeah, keep your light a secret i can find when you are gone, gone, gone...

most people when they can't get away,
it makes them more than a little crazy.
well i'm the one that can never stay,
but i'll always have you with me in this song...

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